2007....Keep It.

I guess today is the day to blog about everything we went through in 2007. I am going to sum it all up by talking about today. Fuck the past its worthless unless you learn from it and grow from it. 2007 for me and I will speak for my family might have been a turning point in all our lives. I went through things that changed me as a person and things I should have learned from the past. Heidi is now in a better place in her life and in a mental place that she can thrive. Brooke started a new chapter in yet another AND LAST new city. Jake....well that brings us to today. Hanging by a thread and still looking for that lifeline. Back at the Dr's office with now something stuck in his stomach. No idea what it is but I am sitting here waiting for a phone call. Worked out as hard as I have worked out in a long time today and cried for him. I think I was actually crying for the entire year all wrapped up in one stupid day. Today.

Like Josh, I will not be feeling or possibly remembering anything tonight. If there is a ball that drops hopefully it drops and smashes 2007 into smithereens!!! There will be lyrics at the end of this blog so don't worry. 5 Things we/I will be doing in 2008:

1. Lose 10-15 lbs. Weight 185 now and have to get further away from 200. 200 scares me.

2. Save Money.

3. Brooke took more of an interest in b-ball, and has helped me get back into it by going with me to the gym to shoot. She rebounds (most important part in b-ball) and I shoot. I want to spend more time with her shooting and me rebounding.

4. Love Heidi. Jan 10th will be 10 years. Oh My.

5. Work smarter, Not harder.

So here are the lyrics that I promised you. Just sums up how I feel today and felt in 2007.

make me feel like a beggar
make me feel like a thief
make me feel like a battle that cannot end in peace
make me feel like running as if i've lost my nerve
make me feel like crying tears i don't deserve

is this really living
sometimes it's hard to tell
or is this just a kinder, gentler hell
turn out the lights and let me stare into your soul
i was born and bled for you to hold

please bleed
so i know that you are real
so i know that you can feel
the damage that you've done
who have i become
to myself i am numb

never said thank you
never said please
never gave a reason to believe
so as it stands i remain on my knees
good lovers make great enemies