Miss My Wife/Child

I think I have found true love. I just got back from watching The Brave One. It was a good revenge movie about a husband and wife that were seperated by things of this sick world in which we currently reside. I miss both my wife and only child and can not imagine living too much longer with out them in my life. This house is quiet and tears fall down my face while listening to this song. It hurts the most when you can hear it in your childs voice over the phone. What hurts more than anything is that I still feel like I brought this onto our lives by stupid mistakes. Heidi wasnt happy here but it would have been nice to do it on our terms. I guess we all make them sometimes, it just sucks when people close to you feel the same pain. Music isnt always just hate, revenge, and rock for me. I found my self ripping this song today and its just funny how lyrics can pull you at the exact time when you need to be pulled. Could be pulling you up from the dumps, pulling you through the swamp, or pulling you to decide what you are all about. Find this song and listen to it with the lyrics. Sara Mclachlan. Do What You Have to Do.


What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do

and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize

that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go

a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

Testify

Here is song one from the RATM show. As you will see the crowd, myself and Brad Igers had waited 5 very long years for the reunion. Enjoy. Mic Check!

Beginning

Here was the start to the show!